So it starts...

I'm a little nervous in setting this up because I'm worried about what it means for my mental health. Nevertheless I'm doing it - more of a "keep up to date" thing, I can't write this stuff down, surely someone would find it??

It would ruin my life if people knew quite how much I thought about my diet and weight and food. I love cooking and baking. I don't think I'm ana, and I'm certainly not a purger (so not mia) but I reckon there's an EDNOS in there somewhere. I just want to be in control.

With lent starting tomorrow (I'm not Christian but what an excuse!) I figured I'd cut some things out. I want to stop binging - if I bake, I binge, because it's there and I generally bake things I can eat (I have a couple of allergies). I eat out of the jar/packet (gross but true - peanut butter, honey, jam, sugar, syrup, I've done it all). And I want to stop this.

I'm afraid of fat people. Classic thinspo doesn't work for me, but show me a picture of a fattie and I'm off to the gym.

Also, I need to keep going to the gym! I've not been for about a month and I am feeling like a fatty, even though I just lost a couple of pounds due to stress....

I figure if I have a blog, I can comment on other people's Skinny Blogs and perhaps get some support from the beautiful community out there.



My digits - CW - 131.2lbs (always weigh in evenings, don't know why!)
HW - 150lbs (2005 - blame going away to college)
LW - 127lbs (I was ill for a while...)
GW - 125lbs (short-term - to be reevaluated as we go. BMI of 18.5)
Height - 5 foot 9


So my Lent Challenge - go to gym 4 times a week, give up binging and eating out of the jar and lose 6lbs. That's what, 1lb a week, which is totally doable. Wish me luck!!