Day 12

It's been an interesting start to the day, I know I shall be out for the rest of it, so it's made up for my eating so far (despite it being only 10.34). So my aim is 1200 or below.

Today
Breakfast was a smoothie made of melon, an apple and a couple of carrots - 100+70+30 = 200. Quite high already.
Made a (healthy!) chocolate cake for a friend who's coming over for dinner tomorrow - she's pretty slim, so we're having salmon with roasted veg and this healthy chocolate cake (see below for more info). Ate some - 300.
Finished off my houmous with some cauliflower - 150.

SO FAR = 650. I have 550 or less to play with. As I'm pretty full now, I shall ignore lunch and drink water through it. I have a packed dinner, of the rest of the rice dish from the other night (250) with some steamed spinach and some cauliflower, which is at most 50. So I could, today, feasibly only eat 300 more calories. Putting me at 950 for the day, which would be awesome.

So plan is completed. And if I break it (I'm meeting a different friend at law school and we usually have a break in which we have the lower cal chocolatey things, hence the rice krispy square yesterday), it's not a huge deal. I do want to stay at 950 though!


I was chatting with my flatmate last night - she'd got her morbidly obese workmate to buy her and a friend the weight loss drug Alli - apparently it was like shitting olive oil and it was so satisfying, like a George Foreman grill, to see what could have gone into her body but hadn't. We also discussed going onto the Victoria Beckham diet of edamame beans, strawberries, lettuce and steamed fish, whilst drinking loads of peppermint and green tea. I could totally do that (perhaps with the addition of porridge for breakfast). Think I might try it next week!!


As for my "healthy" cakes, I've been using the Red Velvet and Chocolate Heartache cookbook, look it up on Amazon. It uses vegetables to reduce the fat content and provide structure, meaning less flour is used (and she uses rice flour anyway). The 135 cal cupcakes I made were the chocolate peanut butter ones, her recipe made 12, I managed to get 20 out of it. I also substituted the eggs for arrowroot powder and water (and used sweet potato instead of butternut squash). The chocolate cake I made for my friend has a principle ingredient of aubergine (which has a total of 15 calories per raw 100g - that's AMAZING). The danger with the low calories ones is that you end up eating more of them - but this is alright, particularly if you're in front of other people (ie reduces down their suspicions). If there's a call for the recipes I can put them up.


*Update*
I came home, I ate some porridge (130 ish), an ice lolly earlier in the day (70) and some icing sugar with cocoa (doh! 150!). 1400. Bugger. Although I did make it into the gym (only burnt about 150 though), and had a jacuzzi and sauna.

I then, foolishly, broke my own rule of not weighing myself (see, this happens). Given I've eaten later than usual, drunk a lot of water and am approaching the end of my packet of the pill and am thus pre-menstrual, I should not be overly surprised at seeing 131.6. But I'm still super-annoyed by it. FFS. I've not eaten THAT much. The bloating had better go down, it feels like I've got an apron of flesh on.

I need to LOSE weight this week, not gain it. Also, my digestive system is being weird, without going into too much detail. Grr bloat.