Day 20

So after last night's disaster (admittedly and expected disaster - will explain), today I woke up with a fake hangover - I don't drink but I had a headache and stomach ache... ugh.

Crisps. And chocolate raisins. And curry. And people who I like but who I don't know particularly well. So lots was consumed, I don't really want to think about the calories. I've been punished enough for it today with the way I felt. Has anyone else had that? Where you eat really healthily for a while, then when you end up eating v fatty food, your body rejects it massively? I will have to think again for next time we have a social.

Onto today - started off with a smoothie (beetroot, carrot, apple, celery, honey, cinnamon and cocoa powder - approx 170 per serving), had strawberries (50), peas (50), lettuce and carrot (30) followed by a Starbucks trip. I went for a soy cappucino with sugar free hazelnut syrup (70). Which put me at 370. Good. Got hungry at 4.30pm, ignored it, drank water, it stopped. Great. Didn't feel well on way home, good, so didn't eat. Until I felt like I should eat. So I had some porridge. I've weighed it out, I had about 100g of oats overall, made with water and sweetened with honey - so maybe 500 cals?

Putting today's total at 870.

Good, yes, but doesn't really balance out yesterday. Or the day before. But it's not with my VB diet (ie Victoria Beckham!!), which is meant to be solely strawberries, lettuce, edamame (I've been using peas) and steamed fish (I have yet to eat any fish). Lots of herbal and green tea is meant to be consumed. Again, I've not had the facilities to do this, so I've just been drinking A LOT of water.

I've varied this quite a lot - added blueberries, carrots and other low cal veg and stuck with porridge. As you can see, not really stuck to it. I've got 2 days of doing this before I will probably have to eat something else (a friend, who also has a few food issues, and I are going to have a bake fest so I can teach her how to bake, then we're going to give out what we make to friends and colleagues on a big trip without eating it ourselves. Cunning.). I can't see why my weight wouldn't go down in this time, but I don't hold out much hope for the Sunday weigh in. I bet I end up weighing much more than my mid-week 126.4, though I'd love to see that number again. On that note, I did finally have a BM today (it's been about 5 days) but not enough again. Hopefully tomorrow or Saturday...