Day 1!

The weekly weigh-in begins - I am, this week, 129.4, which is as good as I could hope for, given the 131 yesterday morning. Reason to not weigh in every day!

I do just want to clarify some things - I really do not think that I have a serious ED. I don't think I'm anorexic (although I certainly share some characteristics, not the underweight thing though) and I'm definitely not bulimic (I can't purge, though I do binge occasionally). I've found that I like an element of control, a place to be accountable for what I eat. I'm hoping that if I do continue on here, albeit not every day (I'm really busy at the moment) I will sort myself out and get to a lower weight. I find it helpful to remind myself how well others are doing.

The main aim is to eat healthy, low-cal food, to mix up the number of cals occasionally, to treat my body as the temple it should be (think of what an amazing job your body does in every day situations!).

I find it odd that as I get to each lower weight, that becomes my "ok" weight, when a few months ago, it would have been amazing to be that weight. For example, a few months ago, 9stone5 would have been divine, marvellous, light for me. now that same weight, 131 is traumatic and I wonder what went wrong.

The plan today is a bowl of porridge (back to the porridge!) perhaps with some honey or golden syrup on it, but not for some time. I'm going to a concert at 6pm, meaning I need to get the tickets by 5.30pm (so aiming for 5.15pm) and leaving the flat by 4.30. The dress I'm going to wear is teeny tiny, so realistically, can't eat after 3pm. I bought vegetables and quorn chicken yesterday, I have fish and more vegetables in the freezer. I also intend to make some peach and poppy seed muffins, which are low cal but can be used for a quick breakfast on the go.

So cals could be as low as
Porridge and honey - 150 (will need to measure this, as wht I thought was 130 cals of porridge was much less, I used one of those Quakers specific packs with separate servings for a while and it was so low!)
Making poppy seed muffins - 300 (overcompensate, but sampling is a necessary part of baking)
Testing poppyseed muffin - 176 (according to the cookbook)
= 626

Chances are that there'll be some dried fruit and some Ryvita with peanut butter or honey on, but that shouldn't be over 1000. I may eat when I come back from the concert but I may not.