Despite what I wrote below and despite trying to "recover" (I did go to counselling but didn't bring up the food issue - we just spoke about my "control| issues"), I've been following blogs this whole time. I hit 125.8 when I was flat-hunting. I've now moved to London. I have basically fluctuated between 126 and 132. Literally, this week, I was 126.6 last Sunday and this morning (Saturday) I was 131. WTF? I've spent all week walking and stressing! OK, lack of proper BM in the past few days.
I think it's because I took this week "off" in order to settle in. And the 126.6 was down from 128 the previous week so wasn't real loss, but why taunt me with that? Scales, begone!! I'll check tomorrow, which is my usual weigh-in day, but I severely doubt it'll be at the good end. If it's over 130, I really need to get back in check.
So clearly, I need to have somewhere to be more accountable. Maybe if I blog here, I'll stop weighing myself every freaking day and ONLY do it on a Sunday morning. Mostly, when I do weigh in every day, it scares me because weight goes up sometimes so much in a week. But I need to stop doing this, really really really.
There's a gym in my new place, which I've not gone to yet (such a busy week), tomorrow, as for me the week starts on Sunday, I return. Back. New GW (we'll say 119, but low end of 120 would be a good start), new plans (I've sort of gone off porridge although I think I could live with it!) and no money (so can't buy lots of food, even though I bought lots and lots this week as it's my first week).
Wish me luck. It's good to be back.
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Celia, it's lovely to have you back if you've decided it's right. I hope things start to get better, stay strong little lady xx
welcome back. whatever you decide to do, you have to do what works best for you.
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