Frustrated

How can this be? I calorie count compulsively, consume between 1100 and 1600 cals per day (in aid of not hitting starvation mode), with the days where I consume are generally when I'm going to the gym, building up my running (I ran for 22 minutes today, this is nothing compared to many of you but I am deeply unfit). Yet still, I gain weight. I took my measurements after my gym session - 35-28-39. 39 inches around my hips? Really? I was 37 6 months ago!

I went to the doctors about changes to my bowel movements (I've always, despite having the "perfect" diet for it, been constipated, but now there's mucus and it's gross) and they asked me lots of questions...

Doctors
"Have you been losing weight?" - No, I've actually been gaining it despite trying to lose it and..
"OK, next question"


Seriously, isn't the fact that I've come in a few times about weight increasing and it's STILL happening a bad thing? I know that's not quite what you're looking for (ulcerative colitis, Crohn's disease...) but pay attention!! I'm not stupid, I'm not shovelling my face with fast food, I'm not inactive and I'm eating a healthy range of foods! FFS!


Bottom of it is, I'm having blood tests to see if there's anything up with my system. I'm fairly sure they'll come back negative.


Since I'm leaving the country for a couple of months, I shall be socialising somewhat this week. GAH it always involves food! On the plus side - travelling = vomiting and diarrhoea and not able to eat when it's too hot and weight loss. Surely?

139.4

So being trapped due to the volcano meant I ate rubbish for a week (we're talking chocolate crunchy cakes and Dairy Milk Caramel... I don't even LIKE dairy milk chocolate!). Still, luckily I'd had a week of 1200, so I still lost slightly. God, my weight is atrocious, how have I gained since restarting the blog? Oh wait, I know, socialising and circumstances. DAMMIT.

It's become clear to me that I won't lose 10lbs in less than 2 weeks. I have started running in the gym (and going to the gym) again though, so that's a good sign. And having eaten a pile of crap for the last week has made me really really crave healthy food.

Herbal Medicine

Well, calories have been at around 1200 for the past two days and 950 for today, assuming I don't eat any more. I should be fine - I went to a herbal shop and bought two types of constipation relief (psyllium husk tablets and some weird fruit cubes). Of which I have had 3 fruit cubes (they recommend starting on a half and not going above one but my body is weirrrd) and 2 of the tablets. I now hvae a stomach ache. It had better not stop me watching Supersize vs Super Skinny, which is on in half an hour...

140.0

So I hardly exercised at home but kept cal intake to approx 1500 per day. Which given my obese-levels of consumption at Christmas/when revising, is not bad.

Nevertheless, I see 140.0 on the scales this morning. I was hoping to lose a few pounds at best, and maintain at worst. But a gain? Foolishly, I forgot on one day to take my pill, meaning that my overly erratic menstrual cycle kicked in and I've been on my period since. So I'm hoping it's that, rather than anything else.

New aim - 900 cals per day. Let's shock this bad boy body into action!

I have a short-term aim - I need to tone up and lose some weight by 21st April. So that's 10 days to lose. Big big big night out. Also, as I said before, I want to be at least 130 if not lower by 5th May. GAH I don't know if that's possible!

138.8

So Sunday's binge has been reduced by lots of walking, some workouts and eating less in the past 3 days than I did on that one day. Exactly the same weight. Right, so in 10 days time I need to be less. Like 5lbs less. In front of parents? Not easy. I've never lost that much weight that quickly. I shall go down as much as possible.

Good luck! Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels - and by skinny, I mean the feeling of jutting hipbones. YES. We can get through this Easter! Reject that chocolate! Keep moving!